I'm over the top excited about getting my brother's hand-me-down-times-3 laptop! My sister came from Barbados last week and when she came over to bring the items off my grocery list request I noticed there was a laptop under the bottle of rose syrup I shamelessly begged her to drive all the way up to Sunset Crest for. Somehow, I knew it was for me! Groceries in hand (shopping in Trinidad is penance and I promise you Super Centre that I will never, ever, EVER complain about you wonderfully stocked shelves again. And now I am homesick for Bim again! Fabulous!) I stood outside chatting with her for a full three minutes worth of wondering why she was taking her laptop to her 3rd trimester check up, mentally popping the "that laptop is for me I just know it!" bubble that had inflated in my head. She says "oh shoots I'm late!". I say "okay well thanks Evil! Really appreciate you bringing the stuff! Tell Dr. Kissoon 'hi' for me!" She says "wait!"
My four favorite words strung together to form a sentence for the month of June are officially "this", "is", "for" and "you". As she lifted it off the seat and put it under my free arm she explained that it was my older brother's originally but he'd given it to my younger brother who sent it for me when my mother's husband bought him (younger bro) a new net book :) Phew! In Trinidad we call that kind of linked up story a pumpkin vine. But I digress... I'm so happy I could burst! Sure it old... So what! Sure I haven't been able to turn it on because they lost the power cord and I really can't afford to buy one right now... One day (hopefully soon!) I will! And in the mean time I will continue to stay awake, waiting for the whole household to drift off to sleep before I sit down at my uncle's desktop to do all the computer based work I can't during the day.
Its things like getting my 3rd hand laptop that remind me of how lucky I am. I look at it two ways... 1. There are people in this world who will never benefit from even a fifteenth hand computer! And 2. If there is one thing I learned by growing up poor and surviving the shit my little family of two is going through now its that small things like this mean the world to me and appreciating these small things is a quality I like about myself and love that my daughter is learning!
So in the coming weeks I hope to be writing more... And properly! Not these rushed through semi-entries I post in the interest of getting it down before someone else needs the desk top and in the interest of squashing my considerable my sleep deprivation.
I'm off to the kitchen to wash up the tell tale signs of a Guinness cupcake order having taken over the house. And then I'll get to bed and look at MY new-to-me laptop on the counter in the bedroom and think to myself again, that I'm lucky to have it :)
